January
26, 1988
To
My People,
If
only
I could bring you to understand that it is only
as you come to me over My
deepest challenges to your life that you come
into My likeness and fulfil My
will for your lives. It is your weaknesses and
temptations—your desires—over
which I call you to Me—not your good works and
your “ministries.” Your
weaknesses and temptations become your ministry
as I shape you over them.
Why
then
do you leave the path that is truest to your own
self for that which
conforms you to ideas? For verily I say unto
you, the path that is truest to
your deepest being is the path that is truest to
Me. It is only through the
door of your deepest self that you can come to
Me. Why then do you hide from
your own self?
To
hide
from your own self is to hide from Me. I am the
seat of all personality.
To find Me, you must come through the seat of
your own personality—your
failures, your flaws, your shortcomings, your
needs.
But
why
do you fear to face your failures? Have not I
taken care of them all? Has
not my blood paid the price? Why then do you
fear? For verily I say unto you,
the devil doth know that in the day you step
through the door of your desires
to come to Me you shall surely live—yes, you
shall fulfil my great purpose for
your life—for the pattern of your failures
mirrors My pattern for your
perfection. As you come to Me by the one which
is flawed, you find the one
which is not.
Therefore
I
ask you, what do you fear? Is it a hard thing to
be humble?
You
see
that it is not a hard thing to be humble. For by
humility I do not demean
you. Humility is not to be brought low as to be
conformed to the idea of what
men call lowness. Humility is only to face
yourself for who you really are.
Humility is only to be honest toward yourself.
By this I esteem you. I say
then, is it such a hard thing to be honest? Why
do you fear that which alone
leads you to Me?
Look
about
you, My People. What do you see? What is missing
among you? Is it not my
Personality? Is it not the reflection of Who I
am among you?
But
what
do I see? Every one of you strives after an
idea—after an image—of Who I
am. But you do not come to Me through who you
truly are. You fear to face Me.
But it is not Me you fear to face—but rather
your own self.
You
hide
from yourself, and in my name you strive after
an idea of Me—and therewith
you cover yourself. You spin thought. You crave
involvement. You
“minister.”
But you minister death,
because you do not minister from Me—My Life, My
Personality—because you do not
minister from who you are [in Me]. You minister
an image—a dead image. You have
no personality. Is not this the tell tale sign
of what you lack?
But
is
not this what marks the world?—that they do not
reflect My Personality? Why
therefore are you like the world, and what
separates you from the world except
that you vainly take My Name upon you?
For
unless
you come to Me through the door of your
weakness, you do not come to Me,
but to an idea of Me—an image.
This
is baal—the essence of false religion. You do
not reflect My Personality. And
unless you reflect My Personality, it is vanity
and a curse for you to bear My
Name.
What
then
would I say to you, My People?—you who come to
Me but do not hear Me, you
who use My name but do not know Me? I say to
you, My people—Cease—Cease—Be
still…within yourselves. Lay your mind to rest.
Commit the idol houses of your
mind to the grave—the house of your religious
imagery erected in My Name to
hide you from your own heart’s cry. Dismantle
your understandings before Me—the
essence of your pride. Disengage yourselves from
the involvement wherewith you
have clothed the frame of your baal house.
Hear
Me,
My People. Come to Me through the true door—the
door of who you truly are
before Me. Come to Me through your inadequacies,
your hurts, your dreams and
desires. For it is of these that the substance
of My true call upon your life
is made. It is here that I may impart unto you
My very own Self—yea, My own
Personality. For as you come to Me by these, the
reflection of My Life in yours
increases. And the measure of your holiness and
your perfection, and of your
fulfillment personal.
Do
you
not see that it is only as you are a conductor
for My Personality that I
may save others through you? And do you not
realize that you only have love one
to another to the measure you reflect My
Personality one to another? For I am Love.
And I am saving Life. Yea, my People, you speak
of “love,” but know not whereof
you speak. For to you, ”love” is an idea to
which you conform and to which you
hold one another hostage. It is one more beam on
your idol house by which you
keep yourself from coming to me through your
weaknesses whereby the love that I
AM might reach through you to one another.
Oh,
My
People would you not cease from this lifeless
charade? Would you not put off
the yoke of self righteous bondage? Wherefore I
plead with you. Leave your
world of idea and come to Me through who you are
within. Leave off building the
empire of another man’s vision—for I have a
vision for you alone – the true
vision of which your weaknesses are a dim
reflection. Come to Me through them,
and I will recreate them by the infusion of My
own Life and bring them to
fulfillment.
Come–let
Me
show you the kingdom that resides within your
own heart. Fear not yourself
for My blood has paid all. Let Me reshape the
world by what I have conceived in
you. Together, let us recreate the universe.
This
is
My will for you and the key to your complete
salvation.
Chris
Anderson
written at Greenville, South Carolina
First Love Ministry
- a ministry of Anglemar Fellowship
http://www.firstloveministry.org
01/88